"I won't worry my life away"

oumick03 @ 2007-04-26T16:00:00

2007-04-26T20:02:03Z

Soooo...Live Journal...Wow...haven't posted on this sucker in ages....nor have any of you...

Just thought i'd post something...see if anyone is still lurking around in LJ land, or if we have all (present company included) switched solely to myspace...lol

Fun with Names

2006-10-20T14:01:35Z

YOUR SPY NAME: (middle name and current street name)
Mary Eastlawn
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your dad's side, your favorite candy)
Helen Peeps (?!?!?!)

3. YOUR RAP NAME: (first initial of first name, first three or four letters of your last name)
J-Mic

4. YOUR GAMER TAG: (a favorite color, a favorite animal)
Bluepug

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Mary Oxford

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of your pet's name)
MicKozEmm

7. JEDI NAME: (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards)
yram kihcazok

8. PORN STAR NAME: (first pet's name, the street you grew up on)
Daisy Tanview

9. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, the automobile your mom drives)
The Blue Vibe (hahahahahhaha)

10. YOUR ACTION HERO NAME:(first name of a main character in the last movie you watched, last food you ate)
Darth Helmet Chicken (hahahahah)

oumick03 @ 2006-03-17T13:21:00

2006-03-17T18:22:40Z

Ugh, I am not getting ANYTHING done at work today...Unfortunately, I am relying on other people getting back in contact with me in order to move forward...VERY frustrating, to say the least....My programs are failing and it seems like there is nothing that I can do about them...

On a better note...it's St. Patty's day :) Yay!

oumick03 @ 2006-01-27T17:03:00

2006-01-27T22:17:07Z

10 LAYERS OF ME...

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Jean Mary Mick
Birth place: Rochester, MI
Current Location: Rochester Hills, Mi
Eye Color: Hazel-Green
Hair Color: Right now? Dark brown & blonde
Righty or Lefty: righty

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: Irish and polish
Your perfect pizza: Just cheese
Goal you'd like to achieve: Get a full time job, lose 20 pounds

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW:
Your most overused phrase: "yeah"
Your thoughts first waking up: you've got to be kidding me
Your best physical feature: ....pass
Your bedtime: 11-12
Your most missed memory: the times I spent with my dad or brother

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke: Coke (screw you U of M! You can't tell me what to drink!)
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or group dates: Both
Adidas or Nike: adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea: neither
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: coffee

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: no
Cuss: absolutely
Take a shower: um, yeah
Like high school: I HATED HATED HATED HATED high school...still do
Want to get married: I sure hope so!
Believe in yourself: Not one bit
Get motion sickness: Nah, not really
Think you're a health freak: Used to be

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: Yeah, lots of it
Gone to the mall: yeppers
Been on stage: well, setting up stuff hehehe
Eaten Sushi: nope
Been dumped: No (that would have been news, huh?)
Gone skating: no
Dyed your hair: yes

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game: no
Gotten beaten up: no
Changed who you were to fit in: absolutely

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER
Age you hoping to be married: as i stated previously, yes
How do you want to die: in my sleep, before Joe

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY
Best eye color: brown
Best hair color: dark
Short or long hair: short

1MINUTE AGO: filling this out
1 HOUR AGO: driving home from work
1 DAY AGO: going to class
1 YEAR AGO: living in ypsilanti
I LOVE: my pug emma
I FEAR: not being good enough
I FEEL: extremely depressed
I HIDE: everything I possibly can
I MISS: my family
I NEED: things no one else can give me
I KNOW: i'll be okay one day

FIRSTS..
First piercing: ears
First credit card: Capital One...for the days I didn't do well on tests :)
First musician you remember hearing in your house: No idea
Last movie seen in theaters: Harry Potter...I think
Last food consumed: Pad Thai with Tofu..Mild
Last phone call: well, voicemail...but really Lindsay

SHORT ANSWER..
I AM: exhausted
I HAVE: too much to do
I LOVE: joe
I WISH: i got more respect at work
I SING: alone in the car
I AM ALWAYS: stressed out
I SPRAY: perfume in the morning?

FAVORITES..
NUMBER: 22
COLOR: blue
DAY(S): saturday
MONTH: october
FLOWER: callilillies

IN THE LAST 2 DAYS, HAVE YOU...

CRIED?: yes
HELPED SOMEONE?: probably not
GOTTEN SICK?: yes
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: no
SAID 'i love you'?: yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: um, no
MISSED AN EX?: no
WRITTEN IN A DIARY?: no
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: somewhat
HUGGED SOMEONE?: Yes

Yeah, I had to do it, and so do you!

2005-10-09T22:30:20Z

1. Who are you, what's our relationship?
2. How long have you known me?
3. Tell me one thing you think is good about me?
4. When you first saw me, what was your impression?
5. Have you ever had a crush on me?
6. Describe me in 3 words?
7. Do you think I'm hott?
8. How would you describe me to someone?
9. Would you ever date me? If you have would u do it again?
10. What do you like most about me?
11. If we could spend a day together what would we do?
12. Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?
13. What reminds you of me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Are you going to put this on your lj and see what I say about you?
16. Do I cross your mind at least once a day?

:\

2005-10-08T13:57:29Z

I want to get a puppy. Well, I want to get a pug. I miss having a pug around the house...it was so much fun. Emma was like my daughter, and I know I can never have her again, so I really want to get one. Oh well. One day I guess I'll have a house and can get a puppy...I just wish I could get one now

oumick03 @ 2005-09-17T00:28:00

2005-09-17T04:26:01Z

Well, Welcome Week has been officially over for a few hours now...I'm exhausted...With the exception of the movie-noted in the last entry-it was a week of great events...so, that's good...I now have a week off...so that's even better!

Anyway...waiting for Joe & his sister to get home from "having a couple drinks"...5 hours ago...i hope everything is okay...but, since i have no way of contacting them...i wouldn't know...

anyway, back to bed for me

oumick03 @ 2005-08-27T14:09:00

2005-08-27T18:07:05Z

I am seriously just at the end of my rope.

I really can't take any of this shit anymore.

I CAN'T TAKE IT!

2005-08-24T19:42:32Z

UGH

I am fed up!

I cannot handle how I am feeling - I have no control over my emotions or the issues I am facing, especially regarding some of my body issues...

I also cannot take when people get ANGRY with me and turn their backs on me because of it...Do you REALLY think I WANT to feel like I do? Do you really think i want to loathe myself all the time like I do??? NO....

This rant applies to no one that has livejournal...like most of my rants..

I just can't take it...I hate myself...and the way someone treats me because of it makes it worse....ugh...

Maybe i'm just doomed to be unhappy...

Good Weekend

2005-08-21T17:43:19Z

I can't believe it's already sunday afternoon...I have SO much work to get done!

Had a great weekend...have been working out lately and that's really lifted my spirits...

had a blast at the dream cruise party...another one has come and gone...

Now, time to work...on the weekend...and not ever get paid

i need help...

2005-08-15T13:48:26Z

so, my life is pretty much crumbling before my eyes...and I'm not sure how exactly it is or why it is. It's interesting, I read sarah's post, and i am with you on some of it...I want to escape - but, if I really had alone time, I'd probably drive myself crazy with my thoughts...

I am supposed to be so happy, but instead I break down in tears every day, can't get myself out of bed...crawl in to bed at 8pm every night, and make Joe miserable...I dread waking up every morning to face the world, but know I have to...

I couldn't even tell you specifically what is causing this...I am just so depressed and I feel so utterly alone. This is not a shot at my wonderful friends. I KNOW that they are there, but there is still that feeling that it is only me...I feel trapped in some ways, and then in other ways completely just out there...

I am hitting the point where I just don't know what to do...I don't function like a normal person anymore, I'm completely scattered...the depression (I don't even know if that's what it is, but it is a convienient blanket term) has affected every aspect of my life...I can't even pretend to be happy anymore...

ah.

STRESS

2005-08-08T19:52:43Z

AHHH, when i'm at work, I feel like there aren't enough hours in the day to get things done...Since i'm only here 3 days a week...i just feel overwhelmed...And then I get so overwhelmed that I jump from project to project and never seem to get a solid thing down....AHHHH

On a different work-related note, the job I applied for at Macomb CC was revised and reposted...The posting closes on Aug 15, so I am hoping to hear back by the end of August as to whether or not I have an interview...I really have a good feeling about this one...

I guess right now I am just a giant ball of stress...I don't have fun anymore...even when I try to have fun, I don't have fun. I don't know what to do anymore...This is supposed to be such a thrilling, happy time in my life...and I feel like I'm about to snap...

Grrr...

2005-08-03T12:45:00Z

So, I was sick of how long my hair was...it just was a mess...so, in an effort to actually look pretty, I had it cut...at grondins..not a salon...BIG MISTAKE

She did a huge hack job...it's even the woman i like there...i almost cried this morning...(i guess it took time to really set in)...granted, i've cried about everything the last couple days...(ladies, you understand!)

On another note...if any of you know a job opening, let me know...I don't like Joe's work...I don't like the way he feels when he gets home from there...so, I want him to find something new (not in a pushy fiance type way, but in a very upset, sympathetic type way)...so, keep your ears open!

I want to see you folks....let me know if any of you are free comin up...linds, i know you have stuff this friday and saturday...i'll email you!

Love you all...

i think im okay

2005-08-02T20:34:54Z

well, had my tests today..

they found lots of my extra heartbeats, but during my stress test they went away the more my heart rate increased, the less the frequency of the extra heartbeats were...and said that was good

They didn't tell me anything about my echocardiogram..they're sending that to my dr. I would think that if the technician had noticed anything REALLY wrong they would have said something (you'd hope)

...so, yeah, lets hope i just have all these extra heartbeats and chest pains just because!!! I think it's alllll okay!

Jean

Following suit...

2005-08-01T16:42:37Z

Okay, I'll do my up-dater now too, then!

Had a ... weekend... Was nice, but nothing exciting...

Work is super busy right now (yet I still have the time to update...hmmm) I have a lot of responsibilities, and feel slightly overwhelmed, but that's okay...everything will get done, and it will all get done well!!

Getting my ring sized tonight. Yay! It'll finally fit and i won't be able to fling it off my finger by talking with my hands!!! hehehe

Tomorrow is my stress test and echocardiogram (okay, why don't they just say ultrasound?) I had pretty bad chest pains friday, but the last few days have been pretty pain-free, so that's good!!! I am sure it's all fine...

My friend from OU, Heidi, asked me to be her maid of honor in her wedding January, so, that's awesome! we have been a bit out of contact for the last couple years, but, still an honor!

Just been some crazy days!

Oh, and the new Dane Cook CD is pretty funny, though I'm dissapointed because the DVD part isnt a new performance, it's just random clips...oh well...that's okay!

SOOOO SLEEPY! But, have a meeting in an hour, then running around!

BYE!

Braindead

2005-07-29T17:28:50Z

I am totally, utterly braindead today..I have so much to do and just can't think....

Ah, Life

2005-07-27T12:52:37Z

I guess it's been a few days...oh well...Life isn't too exciting on this end...More aggravating than anythings...

Let's update positively first though! Finished Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince...well, is that really a positive? It's leaving me NEEDING the 7th book, and that's going to be a looooooong time...For those of you who've finished it, we'll have to discuss! I won't be a LJ spoiler though in case people did not get to finish it...

Have to get some tests done Tuesday...Stress and Echocardiogram....Fun Fun...I'm terrified, but my mom is taking me, so that's good...Will be home monday night, but probably just relaxing and calming nerves (I know the tests aren't scary...it's the thought of the results) BUT, i'm sure it will all be fine...

Issues with friends are ever growing (Not any of you! I love you all!!!) It's those goofy out-of-staters that make me so angry I could scream! Oh well, one of them made life choosing bridesmaids VERY easy...so now I just have to convince joe to get a third groomsman!!! I want three bridesmaids dammit!!!

In case you haven't heard...the wedding date is set for March 17, 2007 (yep, that's right, st. patty's day!) don't worry, it's a saturday..just think, you don't have to try to get everyone to go to the bar! you'll all be getting plastered at my wedding! Woohoo!!!

I dunno...just felt lonely lately...like many of you have....I miss SO many of those good times we used to have (am I breaking out in song here??) I am desperately in need of seeing my friends, and life is so hectic right now (esp. with stuff next week) that it is very difficult...but, i'm bound and determined! Especially because i need to see kevin and linds' place!!!!

Alright, enough is enough...

Ridiculous-ness

2005-07-18T14:40:38Z

So, I find it entertaining the people think longevity = good friendship. This pertains, as usual, to no one who has livejournal. Instead it pertains to an OU "friend." He or she is continually getting upset about the fact that apparently his or her friends are not living up to his or her expectations. (I realize I shouldn't bother coding this post, but hey) - I am sorry that apparently the rest of the world is not living up to their expectations (what is this, bad grammar in an effort to conceal identity???) of friendship. APPARENTLY I am not the only "friend" who is oh so awful in this person's life. APPARENTLY it is a wide variety of the friends of this person doing all of these things to him or her.

Hmm.. Let's think about this for a moment. Can it really be true that every single one of his or her friends is really that horrible to him or her? Really? All of them? OR, should we be looking more at the common denominator in the situation that is causing rifts in these friendships...DING DING DING! By George, I think i've got it! Why are people so willing to point the finger and place blame about ALL of their friendships being bad without even stopping to think for ONE MINUTE that they may be the cause of some of it. I am usually quite the opposite and place the blame on myself before anyone else...NOT THIS PERSON...apparently he or she is the best friend in the world, and the rest of us just suck...

WELL, I happen to find this quite entertaining, to be totally honest. I will say one thing about weddings, they really help you sort out who your real friends are. And for that, I am thankful. I don't need to waste my time and energy on people that in the end will hurt my feelings all the time.

I don't know how to make this post behind a link...

2005-07-17T12:58:26Z

Basics:
Name: Jean Mary Mick (I figured I'd put the whole one down since it's pretty much the same length as most people's first name!)
Birthday: 02/15/1981
Zodiac Sign: Aquarius
Hair Color: Naturally? Brown
Body Mods: Now? Ears & Tattoo
Relationship(s): Engaged!
Language(s): Korean, Arabic, Latin, Celtic...OH WAIT, what languages do I speak...just english!

Favorites:
Color: blue
Food: pad thai, pizza, anything chocolate, chicken salad from tower inn, peeps, frosting...i could keep going!
Band: Live, Jason Mraz
Song: Not a clue
Memory: The day i got engaged!
People: Joe, Lisa, Lindsay, my Mommy, Casey, Kelly, Sarah, Marty, my co-workers..oh, i could go for ages! Dave L, Dave K...sheesh
Clothing Item: my old navy blue jeans...don't have a lot of clothes right now (anyone have 8s or 6s they're getting rid of?!?!)
Movie: Monty Python & the Holy Grail, Empire Records, Ocean's 11...cartoon - Emperor's new groove..or LOTR, Muppet Treasure Island
Ice Cream: Cookies N Cream (the good kind with the big chunks!)
Sport to watch: NBA Basketball, College Football
Sport to play: Basketball
Scent: Joe's cologne
Way to relax: watch TV
Movie you own: LOTR trilogy
Movie you don't already own: couldn't say
Male movie star: Orlando Bloom, Ewan McGregor, or Matt Damon
Female movie star: Julia Roberts or Nicole Kidman
Book genre:Michael Crichton Genre :)
Magazine.. Anything bridal at the moment
Clothing store: Ann Taylor (not that I can afford it)
Non-clothing store: um. No idea
Cartoon character: Kraunk from emperor's new groove (really i have no idea)
CD you own: Jason Mraz
CD you don't already own: Dane Cook's New comedy cd
Numbers: STUPID QUESTION
How many people you’ve kissed: Um...I plead the 5th (since there is NO WAY I could remember hoe many)
How many people you’ve been in love with: 2
How many siblings you have: 2 brothers 1 sister
How many pets you have: with me now, none, at home 2 emma & hogan
How many times you have been out of the country: um, on 2 cruises (a few different countries, but I only count it 2 times)
1How many kids you think you will have: 0 kids...2-3 pugs
How many colleges you applied to: 1 undergrad, 4 grad
How many schools you have attended thus far: 1 undergrad, 1 grad
How many summer camps you have gone to: 0

Have you ever:
Skipped school: only college
Broken someone's heart: doubtful
Been in-love: of course
Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: who hasn't?!?1
Been skydiving: nope
Broken a bone: yes, my pinky finger roller skating
Done something embarrassing: daily
Lied: Yes.
Cried In School: Yes.
Fallen For Your Best Friend?: yep...but then he ended up being gay...funny huh? (i second lindsay's answer!)
Kissed A Friend?: yep
In Lust?: no no no
Been Dumped?: Oh my yes
Been Used?: yes
Dumped Someone?: yes
Been Cheated On?: nope...the bastards were open about their other women
Cheated on someone?: nope
Been Kissed?: Yes
Had something You Regretted?: had something? what? did something..sure
Been in a car accident: once...
Tripped in front of a large group of people: once again, i'm sure we all have

Preference:
Coke or Pepsi: coke
Sprite or 7UP: neither
Girls or Guys: guys
Blondes or Brunettes: brunette
Tall or Short: tall
Pants or Shorts: pants
Night or Day: night
Kiss or hug: um....with who?

Opposite sex:
What do you notice first: eyes
What characteristic is most important: MONEY...hahaha, just kidding, humor & intelligence
Serious or funny: funny
Worst Question To Ask: how many have you....?
All is fair in love and war?: true

Last Time You:
Showered: yesterday afternoon
Stepped outside: yesterday afternoon
Told someone you loved them: before falling asleep last night
Hugged someone: couple minutes ago
Ate dinner with your family: July 3rd

Who:
Makes You Laugh: Lots of people...my co-workers on a daily basis
Makes You Smile: alot of people
Makes you cry: only the people i love can make me cry
Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What: My mom
Can you call anytime, even in the middle of the night: My mom
Has A Crush On You: nobody (except maybe lindsay...i'm still wonderin' hahaha)
Do You Have A Crush On: uh, gee, my FIANCE!
Do you trust the most: Joe, Lisa, Lindsay, my mom
Do you have the most respect for: My mom
Is your best friend: My mom (yeah, common answer) lisa, lindsay

Places:
Last place you kissed someone (location): my bed (oooh scandalous!)
Last place you vacationed with your family: Disney...3 years ago
Last place you took a road trip to: never took a road trip...
Place you want to honeymoon: JAMAICA 2007!!!!!
Place you want to live: near my mom
Place you grew up: Oxford
Favorite place to relax: my bed

Do you ever:
Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night: no way
Kiss: all the time
Hug: yes, all the time
Talk to strangers: Yes
Honk the car horn just for fun: okay seriously what the hell!

First:
Kiss: Matt - 10th grade (yep, i was a loser)
Crush: oh, who knows!!!
Slow Dance: Matt, 10th grade
Boyfriend/girlfriend: see above
Best Friend: Stephanie
Car: 97 purple sunfire

The Last Person:
You Touched?: Joe
Hugged?: Joe
Kissed?: Joe
Instant Messaged?: Linds
You cuddled?: Joe
You Yelled At?: Joe (hahaha...bet he wishes he wasn't the answer to this one)
You Thought About?: Lisa (just read an email from her)
Messaged You?: Linds
Who Broke Your Heart?: No need to discuss
Who Told You They Loved You?: Joe

Have You/Do You/Are You:
Stolen Anything?: actually, no
Smoke?: nope
Drink?: me, never ;) (i mean, OF COURSE)
Sex?: ohyes
Compulsive?: um, no...not too much
Obsessive compulsive?: uh, can be
Panic?: oh my...yes
Depressed?: once again...oh my, yes
Considered a flirt?: not anymore

You're Currently:
Doing: This damn survey!
Downloading: nothing
Uploading?: Nothin
Listening To: nothing
Watching: someting with pauly shore...

Three Names You Go By:
Jean
Chiquita
Jeanie?

Three Screennames You Go (have gone) By:
Jeaniem99
oumick03 (LJ)

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
My Eyes
My clothes
my hands

Three Physical Things You Don't Like About Yourself:
stomach
legs
arms
teeth...
okay, i'll stop

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
Irish
Polish
English

Three Things That Scare You:
Spiders
Being buried alive
Getting cheated on

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
Make up
Phone
Computer

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
Joe's lacrosse shorts
UM FB sweatshirt
tank top

Three Things You Want In A Relationship
Trust
humor
attraction

Three Physical Things About The Opposite Sex That Appeal To You:
Eyes
smile
tummy (i like tummies hehe)

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
watching tv
looking up bridal stuff
reading (when i get the chance)

Three Things That You Want To Do Right Now:
FINISH THE DAMN SURVEY
get more coffee
get more cofee hahahaha

Three Careers You Are Considering:
Student Activities Programmer
Anything that i can get hired in :)
Crocodile hunter - (okay, i threw that one in to throw you off!)

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
Aruba
Jamaica
...anywhere!

Three Kid's Name You Like:
You mean pugs, right? Waldorf, Statler, of course, Emma

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
No idea...i have no goals/ aspirations :)

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
I can be crude
I LOVE LOVE LOVE sports
...

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Chick:
I am way too concerned about my looks
I have a raging temper/ super emotional
I'm extremely logical :)

Three Celebrity Crushes:
Orlando Bloom
Matt Damon
Ewan McGregor

How long did it take you to finish this quiz? like five years

I MUST SEE THIS MOVIE!

2005-07-13T15:01:05Z

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0436078/

Does it ever get easier?

2005-07-13T11:40:43Z

Okay, cars suck...and, since I am the reigning moron of the metrodetroit area, i didn't take into account that if I were to trade my car in, they would have to still pay off VW, and my trade in value would be close to nil making my monthly payments even HIGHER - if that is even possible!

Hopefully my dumbass car is fixed today...dumbass car for a dumbass person i guess...makes sense to me...

Thank goodness for REAL friends

2005-07-11T19:14:35Z

You know, every day I am more and more thankful for the real friends that I have. And every day I find out that the number of REAL friends I have is much smaller than I had previously thought. And you know what, I am starting to be okay with that...Heck, I thought I had even made a new friend, and I was WAY off on that one...so, I give up. I want to put my time and energy into the true, AMAZING friends that I have, and stop wasting energy on those that were probably never friends to begin with...

Once again, if you're reading this, it probably isn't about you (unless you have figured out my screenname some how and are SNOOPING - Yes, I realize it's public domain and not snooping - but if this IS the case, you can't be upset) - Yeah, that was a pointless rant!

But, thank you to those AWESOME people who are making my life great...and not making me feel bad for being happy, and actually caring about other people's lives in addition to your own, and those of you who are just great people...

Yes, I am a sappy DORK

But, this whole engagement thing brought about something I didn't expect to happen. It brought about total ANGER at some friends who i've known forever but now realize don't care at all about me...it brought about cattiness (sp?) in people I would never have expected it from...and it's made me make some harsh realizations about the true nature of friendships over a certain age...

Oh well, the friends I do have are better than I have ever expected, and that is a wonderful thing!

GRRRR

2005-07-09T14:34:02Z

I thought wedding stuff was supposed to be FUN? I don't have a date set yet and people are ALREADY getting nasty about it! Jeez...

I asked Lisa to be my maid of honor - and she said yes (of course) so that is great and she is so happy. I don't even know how many people are going to be in my wedding party...I just have known for a very long time that Lisa would be my maid of honor and Kelly would be in the party...so, might as well get them set...other than that, we still have to discuss the number of people.

WELL, last night we were out and it appeared that one of my friends got very upset that I had not asked her to be in the party...well...of course I didn't. It's just frustrating...the more and more I think about it, the more I realize that this wedding has NOTHING to do with me...I am getting somewhat ridiculed for Joe& I wanting a combined bachelor/ bachelorrette party...why does it matter to anyone but us? It's still going to be a big awesome party regardless...but, apparently that doesnt make the friends - and i am sure won't make his brothers- happy...

I guess I just expected something different. I expected sheer bliss, and now am realizing that it isn't like this...when joe and I sit and talk about stuff it is great...then we get in the real world with pressures etc....

I guess I need to get advice from Linds on how she dealt with all of it!

Grrr...Selfish Friends

2005-07-06T18:33:53Z

Don't worry, that subject line has nothing to do with ANYONE who reads LJ! Trust me, if I thought that about one of you, I'd just flat out tell ya!

Does there come a point when it's better to just cut friends loose? I mean, really...just because someone has been your friend for 20 years, does that mean they have to be your friend forever? Lindsay and I had a bit of a discussion about this...I mean, I have my very best friend Lisa who i've probably been friends with for about 20 years, and I could not imagine my life without her...but then there is this other friend...many of you will know who i'm talking about...it's frustrating because I ALWAYS call her...I ALWAYS email her...I ALWAYS im her...all we ever do is talk about her (actually...she just talks...i sit there...) even when I got engaged we talked about HER! I can't take it...I don't want to be an attention hog, but come on...every once in a while we can talk about SOMETHING else...or, does your phone not dial out? Is it solely a receiving phone??? I am WAY busier than she is and I still find the time...

It's just frustrating...There needs to be some kind of give and take...and there isn't any at all...So, what to do? I DREAD calling, emailing, or iming her...is that a healthy relationship for friends? Is it time to just say enough is enough? I mean, I do love her dearly...but, it's kind of out of control at this point...

The weekend...

2005-07-04T17:58:01Z

Yay for long weekends!

Boo for long weekends that go by TOO FAST!

Had a great weekend...I saw Land of the Dead Friday...Not as good as Dawn of the Dead by any means, but, I think it is an apparent comment on the socio economic status of residents of the united states. The movie paralleled the shrinking middle class and the exponentially growing lower class searching for a way to get to the top....

Yes, that rant was in jest, but I am also serious...since the movie wasn't great I had time to think about it in depth...I told Lisa I am going to write a research project on the connection between zombie movies and current political/ economic statuses...heheheh....no time for that now though :)

Saturday was AWESOME...Linds and Kevin came out and we had some great (and lowfat i must say) food...mmmm chocolate pie....lots of drinks ... and the girls KICKED ASS in the board games WOOOOHOOOOO!!! we rock! (credit goes to linds on scene it...i think i pulled my weight on the 90s game though!!!)

Sunday was a big ol' family bbq with relatives I haven't seen in upwards of 10-15 years...it was interesting...everyone was very excited for Joe and I...

Then we met his brother and their friends at a place in canton for drinks..that was fun...I didn't drink at all...but hey...good times anyway...

TODAY, i am relaxing...I didn't sleep in, but i laid in bed ALL day...now i have to go to the grocery store and get lots of healthy food to restart my diet regiment!! 15 pounds by October should be NO problem!!!

Love you all, and thanks to Linds and Kevin for making my weekend AWESOME